Homecoming!

Yes, the title is not lying....tonight is my school's homecoming game.
And today we had a pep rally to get ready for it.

Other than the whack 'games' that were forced and a teacher talking WAY too much, it was a kickass pep rally! :D

My school is relatively 'guetto' (lol) so all the music that was played by the DJ was rap/hip-hop.
Which I don't mind...it really puts me in a dancing mood. xD

Also, our Band is so hardcore!!
I love all those guys.
They work really hard, and when they are rewarded at competitions, it is well deserved.

The band is what makes our pep rallies so awesome.
It's the only thing that anyone ever really looks forward too. lol

Oh...and in memory of the great King of Pop, the cheerleaders and some volunteers did a tribute and danced to Thriller.
It was so awesome!!
All of them had those moves down! :P

We also had a senior guy do an MJ solo.
The band played Thriller as he danced his ass off!
Decked out in the black fedora, sparkly glove, and whites socks a-blazing. :D

I have to say that this year's pep rally was the best.....minus the whack-ass games. xD
We could have done without those.


Anyway, that's all for now.

Later,
Bambi <3

Just ain't feelin' it.

I know it's been like a week since I last posted.
But I just haven't been in the mood to write.

BUT...since I'm already on here, I'll tell you about this week.

It's Spirit Week!!
Every day is something different that we have to do.

That might be fun for some, but I never do any of that shit.
Except for today, but it was by accident. lol
Today was 'Old School' Day.

I wore a shirt with a peace sign on it, and I wore a pair of my converse.
It was strictly luck. :P

Anway...that's about it.
I'm already tired of writing. haha!

So, later.
Bambi <3

Maybe...

Ok, maybe I exaggerated a little yesterday.

Yes that SOL (big, important test) was indeed important.
But it was surprisingly fairly easy.

I just hope that it actually was easy and I got a good score.
Because if it turns out that I thought it was easy, and that I was going to pass it no problem.....then I end up failing it -- I will be highly pissed.

Other than having to do that test/exam, and the usual work...there was nothing else that called for much energy. lol
Except during 4th block (History 11 CP). *rolls eyes*
That teacher gives us SO much work to do, and makes it where we have to turn in like 5 or 6 things at once!
She's doing so much, that one of the other History teachers actually asked her to slow down on her lesson plan. lol

That's pretty bad. :P

Well, later today....about 5 pm, I have a "Dr's" appointment.
So I'll be back after to tell you how that goes. ;)

Later!
Bambi <3



IIIII'M BAAAACK! :D

Lol, just got home from the 'doctor's' and everything went well.
We talked about all sorts of things.
And tried to figure out a way to control my anxiety.

Hopefully one day soon, I'll be able to just do one simple thing and be fine for the rest of the day.
It sounds almost impossible now, but it will be done.....one day.

Anyway, that's all that went on today. :]
Hope it wasn't too entertaining. lol

Later,
Bambi <3

Just another school day.

Well, I just got home from being at my friend's house after school.
I hung out on her bed while she played video games and talked to her boyfriend. lol

Anyway, today at school was ok.
After not being there 4 out of 5 days last week, I was totally lost.
But I still have to prepare for a fucking SOL (big, important test) tomorrow morning.
UGH!!

I'm not ready for it.
I hope I get lucky and pass it anyway though.
It's only for English, so it shouldn't be that difficult.

Even though I'll probably do decent.....WISH ME LUCK! :]
I'm going to need every ounce of it I can get.


Totally Random.....
One of my guy friends at school as a lip ring.
It looks so awesome and I want one SO bad!
But I don't know if I'd be content with someone shoving a needle through my lip. xD

I want one...but I DON"T want to feel it. lol
If there's a place I can go that numbs you before sticking you....Please let me know!

That would totally make up my mind for me, to get one.
I'd go for it then! :D
Also if there were a such thing as painless tattoos. xD

I'd be set! lol


Well...that's all for today.

Later,
Bambi <3

Bored...felt like writing. :]

Ok, I am really bored.
And totally have to pee right now. lol

So, I'm gonna go do that and then I'll come back and tell you what I actually wanted to blog about. :)

Ok...I'm back. xD
Check out this pic that I found on Photobucket.
http://i553.photobucket.com/albums/jj397/mileslover247/vampire-1-1.jpg

I totally want to look like this chick.
She looks awesome, even though she's trying to look like a vampire. lol

I just look ordinary.
She looks....I'm not a lesbian or anything....but hot. xD

Well...that's all I have to say right now.

Later,
Bambi <3

Ugh...

I'm so sick of being like this.
I'm sick of being nervous and anxious about Everything.
It's so ridiculous...and stressful.

Yes I'm like every other teenager, I hate school.
But I've missed 4 out of 5 days this week, just because I was anxious about going.
For some stupid ass reason.

Ok, another example of how bad it can get.
I recently went to a concert to see a man that I've been dying to see.
I had an amazing time, but of course before he came out to do his set....I literally felt like I was going to pass out from nerves.
My hands started tingling and I was getting light-headed.

It stresses out my parents and gets them pissed off.
And that only makes it worse for me.

I've been told that I 'drive them crazy'.
They don't understand why I get so...something.
And when I tell them that I don't know either....it just frustrates them more.
They even threatened to take me to some crazy place.
But I'm not crazy.
I just have major anxiety issues, basically.

My mom is always upset/crying.
She stays stressed out because of me.
I hate that...It shouldn't be like that, she shouldn't have to worry 24/7 about me.
I'm almost old enough to be out on my own.
But...my mind was reeling this morning.
If you can guess.

I'm not suicidal, so no need to worry.
I'm even too much of a coward to take my own life.
And, my life isn't no where near bad enough to even consider something like that.
But I'll admit...thoughts were running through my head.

After our little dispute about me not going to school, this morning -- me and my mom -- she called me and actually asked to make sure I wasn't having any 'crazy' thoughs.She knows me too well. lol

Ok, I've said enough for today.


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